Wow, my blog feels rather lonely. It's actually kind of nice because then I'm not as reserved about what I write and such. Not that I usually am, I don't know. It's just less pressure I suppose.
Anyway. Thanksgiving was fun... but really, I got really tired of hearing everyone say how horrible of a holiday it is and everything. Yes, we should be thankful everyday but Thanksgiving is a special day for those who might have forgotten to take time and remember what they have. And no, I don't just mean material possessions.
Okay, so that was from a few days ago. Actually, that was from a week ago. And now I'm finishing my update (or at least going to try to). The last few days have been really strange. School was cancelled last Wednesday meaning no finals that day. Yay! I was not studied up and still had like 200 pages of Les Miserables to read. So periods 2 and 4 finals were Thursday and no school Friday. Since we didn't have school Wednesday I baked a cake. Since we didn't have school yesterday, I baked cookies. I really need to quit that. :) But really, yum. My cookies are the best. Okay, maybe not the best but pretty close :)
Anyway, being kicked off my routine has been extremely emotionally draining. And I find that I cannot keep up with everyone. Lately I have been more "in the social scene" (the only way I can think to put it) and that is just like sucking the life right out of me. I am going out with Brett and so we hang out a lot and I'm not really used to that. It's like I don't get any time to myself anymore. So recently I've been avoiding the computer and just everyone. I need me time! I really don't think people understand that though. The last couple of days I've been at the point where it's making me sick. I haven't been eating hardly anything and I've been sleeping like mad. Last night I went to bed at midnight I think and woke up at 10. Then lazed around a bit, got online, then read more of Les Mis (only have like 50 pages to go). Well, I decided sleep would be really nice so I went back to bed and didn't end up getting up until 4! I was supposed to hang out with Brett today. But, there's always tomorrow.
Tomorrow I promised Ben I would help him with a psychology video. So I think it will be me, Ben, Ian, Natalie, and the Schufelt's. Hopefully some more people I know! I don't really ever hang out with any of them besides Natalie and her not even that much so idk. I'm sure it will be fine. They all seem really nice.
Today it finally hit me that I really need to get on the ball with college applications. Like, seriously! I cannot believe I haven't done any yet. My first one is going to be Reed. I'm excited. Really super nervous though. I already had my SAT scores sent there so I think now it's just filling out forms and writing my essay. It makes me really nervous. Pretty much the only person I have talked to about going is Sara and she always says "Well, they're really hard to get into." or "REALLY smart people go there". She always makes it sound like I don't have a chance. I found the booklist for humanities 101 and decided to start reading some of the books that they recommend and maybe even some of the ones that they read in there. I suppose humanities would have been a good class to take in high school. Anyway, I don't know what other schools I will apply to yet. Probably just OSU and maybe Concordia. Everyone keeps saying I should go to Eastern Oregon. I really can't. It's too far away and I don't drive. I seriously don't think it would work out. And I don't want to go there. Although it would be very cool to go to school with Rosie and Louis and Sara. I'm thinking if I don't get into Reed, community college is looking pretty good. I know quite a few people who go to CCC. That would be pretty cool. And there drama department looks pretty good.
Well, I think I'll stop freaking out now :) and maybe read some more. I only have tomorrow to read Les Mis and I think I'll be busy the whole day after 1 so I better get started. Adios.

Lovely, Lovely night...

Hey all. I don't really have too much to say, just a few random things.

First of all, Cinderella tickets went on sale today!! So get them now, before they sell out! Heh, that was a joke... But yeah. Definitely, come. It will be pretty good I think. At least okay and somewhat humorous. And who knows, I may mess up so that would be pretty funny. During practice today, people got mics but I was the only main character who didn't get one. =/ It didn't bother me THAT much but when "a friend" realized that I didn't get one she had this look of absolute horror on her face. So apparently not getting a mic is pretty much the worse thing that could happen to you. :)

I still haven't bitten my nails! Lol, I do realize that it has only been 2 days since my last blog but still, haven't bitten them. And I also just realized that I'm not sure how to spell realize. I think it's with a z... Hmm...

I'm supposed to be going to Lesel's house this weekend. Her brother invited me to come hang out with him. I was kind of nervous but I'm not now. But it makes me upset because his girlfriend is talking badly about me in front of my friends. And of course, I just hear about it. My friends don't tell me how they stood up for me or anything. Apparently they just listen to her complain about me and then tell me about it. But I suppose that is better than not even knowing she's doing it. How immature.

I was supposed to go running after school but it was raining and my mom said I couldn't because I had to make dinner. :( Oh! So, I organized a kind of caroling group to go to hospitals and senior homes and such and we had our first meeting today. It ended up being me, Amy, Lesel, Sara, Jessica W, Natalie, Kin, Justin, and for a teeny bit Rachel. It was so awesome!! I could not believe how good we sounded and how well we blended. I was especially pleased at how good the guys sounded. I don't even know if either of them were interested but I think Kin way swaying towards it. It would be a lot of fun, and we kind of need the guy's voices. Luke was supposed to be there but we forgot to remind him. Oh, and Mary, Samantha, and Jean are all supposed to be there too. Ooh, that would change the ratio of sopranos to altos by a lot. Oh well.

Hmm... I really like Les Mis so far! Except for the length of it. It's so dragged out... but it's good. I really don't want to do a final on it though but I'm really happy it isn't cumulative or is it accumulative? Lol, I can't spell today. I think spell check will get it for me though. Well, I need to go finish dinner. Adios.

Fol de Rol

Hey guys and gals!
I really should not be online considering I have 20 pages of Les Mis to read and it's 6:48 am. But I don't have ap until 5th so I will be able to manage something...hopefully.

Ooh, so, I took my sat's. Yeah, I am a genius. Ha, just kidding. I am pretty sure that if it were possible, I would have failed the math part. I have no idea what happened. And I'm fairly decent at math so yeah... But the literature part was so insanely easy! I could not believe how much I knew just from AP english. I was just like, "OH! There's a vague pronoun!" So, that part went really well. And the essay wasn't so bad... I don't think I did very well on it though because it kind of ended up being like a persuasive essay when the topic was something about not letting others influence you.

...And fiddledy dee-I'm really tired of one of my friends but I can't tell her that. We're like really good friends (not Stephanie!) and lately she has been seriously taking advantage of me. Mostly when it comes to money. Like, I buy her stuff constantly... and she is really rude. I can't exactly put it on here, guessing that she could possibly read it but yeah, I'm just really annoyed right now. I really don't like the feeling that someone's only your friend because they can get stuff from you.

Random updates::
*Broke up with Josh.
*Kritzeck is moving in 2 weeks.
*Our play is in 2 weeks! Actually less.
*I still haven't bitten my nails since I blogged about not biting my nails... :)
Well, we have an FFA meeting this morning so I should probably go.