I can't stop singing!

I really should not be blogging considering it is 9:39 p.m. and I do have school tomorrow. Not that that is late, I just have other things to do before I can go to sleep. Like read part of Frankenstein. We finished Teaching a Stone to Talk yesterday. I tended to like the shorter essays better. I think that would have something to do with my attention span.
Speaking of ap, we have a non-fiction essay due tomorrow. I love my paper. I'm pretty sure it's the best paper I've written because it was something I actually wanted to talk about. I know with the summer assignment and the Stranger paper and the Oedipus paper we got to choose the topic but I didn't want to write about the books. This paper is awesome because I just got to pick a random topic and go on and on about it. It ended up being really short. Just over 3 pages. But it's okay because I love it and I think C will like it also.

I noticed that I tend to only blog about certain things. Such as, when I worked, I only blogged about work. Now that I'm going out with Josh, I always talk about Josh. How boring. But oh well. I'm still going to talk about the same old things considering I never do anything new. Well, I've decided that it probably isn't a good idea to go out with Josh anymore. He told me today that he's interested in trying a certain drug that shall remain nameless. And it's one of the really bad drugs. I'm sorry but I don't consider marijuana and hallucinogens to be THAT bad but there are other drugs that I think are absolutely horrible. And the fact that he would entertain thoughts of doing those tells me that he is not boyfriend material. At least not for me. I'm just not good at this whole hurting people's feelings thing. I don't know when I'll break up with him. And I always say I will but I never do. Idk what to do really.

In anatomy, we looked through magnifying glasses and a hand held microscope at our skin and I looked at my fingernails with the microscope and I was absolutely horrified! And hands have so much dirt and bacteria on them! I have stopped biting my nails. I haven't bitten them in 2 days. I cannot believe how absolutely disgusting they are. I will never put them in my mouth again. I have randomly caught myself trying to chew them since then but I catch myself everytime. It's so weird because I've never been able to stop biting them before and I've just suddenly stopped. It's weird what disgust will do to you.

Mr. Christenson told us today that it was our last day to have scripts on stage!! He gave us no prior warning. I suppose we do only have 3 weeks until the show but still! That is just crazy. I can't memorize my lines by Monday! Well, I can, and I will, but I don't want to. And I need to read for book club.

Well, homecoming is tomorrow. I'm really excited for it and I don't even know why. Except that I just realized I was supposed to get a dance pass for Kassey and never did. Oops. Hopefully she really didn't want to go... Then afterwards I am going to Lesel's to take more senior pictures. Hopefully they turn out better this time. Then saturday night we're going to kassey's party. I don't even think kassey will no everyone there, it's going to be huge. Then sunday no plans and monday there is a venture crew party. It's going to be especially lame but that's okay. I think there will be 12 people there, if everyone shows up. But it will still be fun. All time with friends is fun, lame or not.

Only a small misunderstanding...

Hey guys!
So, I really don't have all that much to say but I'm updating anyway.
It turns out Josh isn't that good of a boyfriend after all. A bunch of things have happened but it turns out it was all a misunderstanding. I am so tired of telling people that. We have "misunderstandings" way too much considering we've only been going out 10 days.

Amy is supposed to take me to the zoo tomorrow. And some other people are supposed to go too. But wow, I really want to go but I don't know if I will get to or not. Depends on if she calls me. I really like feeding the birds though so I really want to go just for that. Plus a day with friends could be lots of fun.

So, Brett keeps hitting on me. And telling me to dump Josh. It's kind of funny on one hand but kind of not on the other. Like, I've liked Brett since I've known him but he hasn't liked me until now. But I've had other boyfriends so it's not like he likes me when I'm unavailable, he just likes me now. I'm not really positive that he likes me though, maybe he's just really considerate and doesn't want me to get hurt. Idk. It really seems like he likes me though. Like yesterday, he was talking about how we are really compatible and we should be together. Maybe he was kidding?

So, I have no one to sit with at the game tomorrow, so I'm going to hang out with brett I think instead of going to the game. Which kind of sucks because I really wanted to go to the game. But yeah, I only go because of friends and no one has said anything about going and if they are, they're playing in pep band. Lame-o's.

Oh, so Josh gave me a flower today and apogized but then he was a jerk after that. He said he was still upset from the day before. Whatever. Augh. Maybe it wasn't meant to be. Or maybe I should just wait it out. Idk.

My ap grade is now a 91!!! How exciting! Mr. C never put my extra credit in so it went from a c+ to an a- today. I was SO happy! Got a b+ on my hamlet project. Way better than I deserved. Well, that's all I've got. I guess I will update another time. Adios.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE!!

Hey guys! So, how is everyone?? Good, I hope!
I've been updating my gj way too much lately so I figured I would get on here and post. It's been a whole... 5 days since I've last posted I think. . . I really want to say...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE!!!

And in other news...
I'm feeling really creative right now but really worried as well. Lesel posted on her gj about Nick being home. But I have no idea how long or what. And I'm supposed to be spending the night next weekend. So that most likely will not happen if he's home for a significant amount of time. But I doubt he'd be staying at home anyway so I don't think I have anything to worry about. I think it's kind of funny how he came home 5 days after Josh and I started going out. Perfect timing. It definitely makes me at ease. Except that Josh probably doesn't know anything about my past with Nick and how it all ended like a month and a half ago for good. But yeah, I'm just kind of freaking out because Nick and I aren't talking anymore and it will be way awkward to see him again, but hopefully I won't have to.

Ooh, I got my hair cut! I really like it now that it's grown out a teeny bit. Especially when it gets wavey, it's way cute. How egotistical does that sound? Sorry. But yeah... I actually like it for some reason. It looks better than my hair did long. So maybe I won't grow out my hair after all... who knows? And it isn't turquoise anymore either. That faded out. At the roots, where it was extremely light, it kind of is still but not too much. When it faded out I went into the bank to apply for a job and the boss said they would call me if anything opened up for Saturdays since I can't work weekdays. I was disappointed because I was led to believe that the Estacada branch was hiring for Saturdays but they aren't. But she took my name and phone number plus Kritzeck's mom works there so hopefully they will call me soon!

Tonight, at Portland State, is the play Alcestis. I am so excited to see it! It was a really good play. One of the best I've read. It's going to be so neat to see it acted out. Usually when I see plays, I haven't read them or I have read them and I'm in them. So yeah, it will be really neat to watch a play and know what's going to happen ahead of time. Katie thinks that Shakespeare wrote it...which is kind of funny since the website she got it off of said that Sophocles wrote it. She's kind of forgetful sometimes though... Shakespeare, Sophocles... same difference.... :)

Well, that's all I really have to say. I hope everyone's day is fantastic! Especially Stephanie's!! =)

josh! and stuff!

Hey all!
So wow, I didn't realize I NEVER update anymore. Yeah, I'll work on that some more. School is just a tad time consuming though. And then when you throw play practice, ffa meetings, drama club meetings, and science club meetings on top of that, it gets kind of difficult to get online. The only reason I'm online now is because I'm taking a "mental health day" tomorrow. Which basically means, I'm skipping. With permission from my mother of course. She's skipping work as well. Should be interesting, to say the least.
Well, a couple entries ago I talked about Josh. Well, Saturday night I got online at 9:30 p.m. and stayed up talking to him on aim until 6 in the morning! Then Sunday, we hung out all around town from 2-4. It was insane but so much fun. I have never met a guy that I related to so well or had so much in common with. He's such a sweetie too. And he asked me out today. I said yes. He's a good kid. I'm happy. It's like there's no pressure there.
So, while throwing a boyfriend on top of all the other things I have to do, you have to throw on my lack of college information and testing. I am so freaked out about taking the sat on the 5th of November, as I blogged about last time. But like seriously, who wouldn't be??
After learning that I gained 10 pounds since I last weighed myself, I decided to stop eating junk food. Although, I did have a bowl of cereal for dinner. But that's all I had. So yah, I'm so adipose. But I'm working on it. My mom is like preaching to me about how much sugar there is in pop so now I'm sticking to water. Kind of insane, especially for me. We'll see how long it lasts.
Okay, so this girl Stacy (I loathe her) is all sweet to Josh and he thinks they're friends but at a game a while ago, right after sara and him broke up, Stacy asked Sara if they were going out and Sara said no and Stacy said, "Good, he was kind of a geek anyway". Now what kind of friend is that? But it's not like I can just tell him that. I wouldn't want to hurt his feelings. So I'm just going to let him pretend she's really his friend. It kind of makes me feel bad.
Ooh! So Josh taught me how to play Scarborough Fair, over the internet. It was really fun. I already knew e, f, g, b, c, and d but he taught me g , a, and f#. He's a really good teacher. I'm not sure if I'm playing the song right but of course like all things it will just take practice. But yah, it's pretty cool that i can play like one song now. I think I will practice more often now that i know what i'm doing. I'm a little scared to learn chords though. That's a frightening concept.
Oh, everyone's going trick or treating this year. Way exciting. Amy and I were talking about being "windblown" and like messing up our hair and gluing leaves and twigs and pinecones and such to our clothes. I love the idea. I already got a tiger dress but that's what I'm wearing to kassey's halloween party, not trick or treating.
Well, this is all for now. Now you can link me again, since I commented and updated :) *coughevancough*