Season's Greetings

Wow, so I never receive emails anymore from blogger telling me that people have commented on my entries so I just kind of figure no one has and don't check it. So, sorry that I'm now replying like two weeks later.

I realize Reed is way expensive. It is almost as much to attend Reed for one year as my mother makes in one year. That is insane. I'm not even quite sure if I would even go, were I accepted I think I just want to know that I could go if I wanted to. I am definitely not worried about living in debt though. I am not one for material things at all.

Things lately have been weird. "Holiday Parties" and such. I've been a lot more social than I ever thought possible. I actually talked on the phone yesterday for about an hour and usually when I do that it's with Kritzeck because she is the only person I can maintain a conversation with for more than five minutes but it wasn't her. It was quite strange. I despise the phone...But not lately.

I'm not going out with Brett anymore. I honestly don't know why I even go out with anyone. I keep telling myself I won't and I have all of these reasons but I forget all about why not when the opportunity arises. But my new year's resolution is to not have any relationships besides that of friendship, at least until school is out. Oh, and to stop biting my nails. I don't think either will actually happen but I suppose I could try.

I am so excited for the new year. I am so anxious to graduate. Really, I do not want the responsibilities that my parents have. I do not want to support myself. I do not want to meet new people. But I have to. It's a challenge. It will be fun. The future sounds so promising.

I have not played my guitar in the longest time. I suppose it would help if I knew how. I know the notes though. I was thinking of taking the guitar class that the high school offers but I do not really want to. True, it would be nice to know how to play but what if I can't learn? Okay, of course I would be able to but I don't know. I'm pessimistic like that.
Oh my, I need to get to work on filling out my fafsa. I absolutely hate deadlines. Everything that I need to do will be put off until the last minute and I will be completely overwhelmed. Oh well, I know it will get done.

Anyway, if I don't update before then, Merry Christmas everyone and Happy New Year!